After suffering a miscarriage at the beginning of the year I was super excited and grateful to discover I was pregnant again. However I spent all of the first trimester battling nauseous and vomiting. I was so dehydrated because I couldn’t keep anything down that my flat mate had to call an ambulance for me. I’ve had far too much time off work, suffered with mood swings and just locked myself away in my bedroom. All my family and friends were all excited about the pregnancy, trying to guess what sex the bump was, what it would look like and talking about my baby shower. I couldn’t join in with them and felt really guilty. If I wasn’t excited now would that mean I was going to be a bad mum? Did that mean I wouldn’t be able to bond with baby when s/he was finally here?
This all changed after my first scan, when I got to hear the bump heart beat all my troubles melted away. Don’t get me wrong till this day I’m still being sick, feeling super drained and my breasts and back aches like they never have before but I know the bump is healthy and growing and that keeps me going.
I did discuss with my doctor that I was feeling down and he brushed it under the carpet. I’m lucky I had my partner, family and friends to talk to. They all reinsured me that I had nothing to feel ashamed of. We all have the blues at some point of our lives and we shouldn’t suffer in silence.
Have you suffered with the first trimester blues? I would love to hear your experiences